My wife gave me a necklace of her's to use as a symbol of my submissive role. I started wearing it about a week ago and found when I wear it more taught, it brings to the surface feelings that I was hoping for. It is like I am made aware of being an intrinsiclly horney man who is being kept locked up and chaste to be all wound up for my wife’s service. My sexual frustration boiling over and channeled instead into nimble service.
This weekend saw me getting into trouble with a bad bout of pouty behavior where I acted like a child. My wife has a punishment lined up for me and I am hopeful she will too follow-up with something corporal. She had promised me to play as my teacher and I being a student in trouble. I can feel the desire to be treated as her naughty bad boy who needs to be taught a lesson and it fills me with an almost uncontrollable desire to throw myself at her feet. I can not wait for the next time she uses me for her pleasure, punishes me, or sets me to a situation where she displays her dominance over me.
Off to cook dinner and into another week. TTFN…
10 comments:
SH,
Your blog is an interesting read, especially for those that have kept abreast of your life for many months. What I see from afar is a man slowly moving further into submission. I can see changes both in your wife as she quietly tightens the leash on you and I can see it with you as you too have changed both emotionally and psychologically. I would predict in a year or so that you will have your wish of being her cuck. I don't advise it, but there is something that tells me it will be apart of your future.
Mr. IH,
Hello. Glad you are enjoying the blog. The D/s aspects of our relationship have been changing since we first started. It has always been a progression at my wife’s comfort level. It was understood to be so when we agreed to have me her subservient. In my view it has brought us closer together as we work through the complex emotions together as well as enjoy the intrinsic benefits a D/s relationship brings.
As to her feeling comfortable openly enjoying another man and flaunting it to me, I would consider it a wonderful gift. I personally feel for us a cuckold lifestyle to be a good way to live. Me being her domestic husband who she keeps in chastity to remain docile to her leadership and wrapped around her finger and enjoying her day-to-day home life with. Her boy friend and her enjoying sexual interactions she withholds from me, with me being shown to not be allowed as a participant in such pleasures except in a service role when seen appropriate. I have often fantasized about being directed by her to give her oral sex after her telling me she has cuckolded me and when I do look into her eyes an expression of comfort with me being her cuckolded husband rests on her face, knowing she has decided to keep me locked and never let me out while she enjoys men of her choosing and allow me to participate only as an observer after the fact and to clean her when she comes home so as to be forced to taste the evidence routinely of her decision. It would be a wonderful expression of D/s which I would enjoy immensely. I have authored many caption posts on the subject which Mr. Indy has published on his cuckoldcaptions.com site. Unlike you though, I do not think that day will ever come. Although there has been progression with her comfort as the dominant, it is on such a low gradient as I do not think it practical to assume it will ever reach that level of comfort. This does not make me sad or upset. I am her submissive and have found pleasure in bending to her will in whatever form that takes.
Thank you for the comment.
Sincerely,
-SH
Great post Mr SH, nice to hear that you are moving forward.
I am afraid I don't share your desire to be cuckolded, at least not with another man. I think that I may have mentioned before I wouldn't mind if Jane wanted to take a female lover, but I think that is more about wanting to be dominated by two women, than it is about a desire to have Jane flaunt her dominance over me by taking another male lover.
I guess this is where my submission would be outweight by jealousy, something that would be present if Jane took on another man, but not if it was another woman.
Mr. @AT,
Thank you for taking the time to comment on my blog.
Yes, I do remember you indicating in the past you feel it okay for your wife to take a female lover, but not a male. I have had several dozen caption posts published by Mr. Indy on his cuckoldcaptions.com site. The F/F male-sub cuckold relationship is pretty commonly referenced on the site in caption posts. All cuckold caption authors seem to have that desire in common. That you do not have a F/M male-sub desire is not at all strange. I think it plays into the female superiority dynamic, personally, as two women enjoying each other with keeping a submissive man seems to exemplify such a situation. I too have explored this and do share it with you, but I too have the F/M male-sub desire for sure. Most captions on Mr. Indy’s cuckoldcaptions.com site are of this flavor.
-SH
SH,
Enjoyed this post. It actually pushed some buttons for me. I've come to think of my cage as a constant reminder of my professed submission to my wife. I really have come to prefer to be locked, and she seems to be understanding this fact. I am also having some desires for another "reminder" like a piece of jewelry or maybe even a piercing.
Mr. LH,
I enjoy the posts on your blog as well. Glad my wife is letting me follow it.
I also desire to change my last name to my wife's maiden name, so it too can be a reminder anytime I sign a paper who is my leader/owner. She considered it but found it impractical.
Sincerely,
-SH
The desire to have your wife take on a lover is a sick male fantasy.
It is the type of fantasy that turns most women off to the idea of femdom living.
I suspect this is more about what you want than what your wife desires.
Mistress
Mistress Kathy,
Mistress Roulette once believed as you do. She had a women on her pod-cast who held a pro-poly view (she had a submissive husband and openly also had boyfriends). Mistress Roulette altered her view and instead explored a few poly types of relationships. For her, it seems to work out well. I do not mean to minimize your view, but thought you may want to know there are dominant women who hold differing ones.
Sincerely,
-SH
I'm glad She is keeping you on a short leash!
Ooh, I think a necklace is a great idea. When I had to wear Wife's bracelet, I was always reminded of my place...the jingling, oh man...
I hope you got the punishment you deserved! :)
very well written bro. i love reading ur bog. i dont have any cuck fantasy and am sure my Goddess wouldnt like to be with another lover male or female. my Goddess always allows me to open her shoes and sock after her work out and i love to smell her and kiss her feet everyday after her work out.
Post a Comment