It is clear to me the out of town trip caused such an effort on my part as to had made me exhausted. I was sapped for about a week after and had a difficult time staying abreast of my chores. I missed an important meeting I was in charge of taking our eldest child to, and didn’t wash the bed linens as I was scheduled. Also, I just felt constantly hurried and could not shake the feeling for the entire week after we got back.
Also during this time, my wife had to step in to address an emotional derail I was having. She let me vent and a few days later applied a punishment as correction. I had to stand on a stool with my heels hanging off for an hour one night and 45 minutes the next night. It was quite uncomfortable. My wife let me watch a movie on my iPhone while I stood there. It helped me be able to be dismissed by her while she did classroom work. She tells me it will be my new punishment I can expect when I misbehave.
Christmas season is quickly approaching. I am working with our eldest to keep him on track with his school work. It is a big project since his math grades have dropped and he is struggling with the material. I intervened to develop some basic study skills with him and also assigned extra problems with the material he struggles with. With the holidays on the horizon, I am being diligent in this task to ensure its importance is respected. Also, my wife let me know she volunteered her home to host her department’s holiday get together.
With the busy holiday season, I am glad that I seem to have recovered from the family trip. With being past the three month mark in chastity, I am starting to feel some feminine inkling again. Knowing what to expect this time, I am aware of suppressing them when out in public with my wife. She doesn’t seem to mind if I am a bit of a fairy while we are alone. I do not know, but I suspect she will simply grow accustom to it and let the six month mark lapse w/o letting me out for an orgasm to counter the effect. That is not scheduled until spring time though. It just seems she is enjoying me kept chaste and I think she will end up deciding to just leave it that way. Just a little rambling from the chastity journal. For today, I am appreciative for living as a submissive to a wife who is now more liberal in her punishments of me and to be able to wear her necklace she gave me as a form of submissive collar. Those two are welcome additions for me to enjoy the submissive pleasures from and I am appreciate to her for their additions.
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Great blog!
I used to be the Head of Household and had my wife wear a perls' necklace that meant a lot to me. Since she was a quiet follower, she did to please me but for her it never meant a submissive necklace. Now my wearing of a Chastity device is really affecting both of us in our developping dynamic!
Mr. RC,
Hello and thx.
I do believe the history of women wearing tight fitting things around their neck was it assisted in achieving orgasm in some respect. Chokers and other tight fitting neck jewelry are now very common. The difference with mine is my wife gave it to me for the specific symbol of a visible overt signal between us that I am her submissive. There is something about it being tight fitting for me that makes it erotic too. It brings to the surface that I am owned by her. I can not currently put into words these feelings, as they are still new and I am still grappling with them.
Your wife’s pearl chocker would look stunning with the new addition to her anklet.
;-}
You are a lucky man and should express your appreciation to your wife for keeping you locked as her chastity slave. Enjoy.
Sincerely,
-SH
Interesting about the tight-fitting neck wear to assist in orgasm, Mr. SH.
Even more interesting is how your Wife really seems to be handling your "pouty" times, putting you on that stool for sooo long. Especially when she realizes She won't get any work out of you during your punishment times, lol :)
My poutiness certainly needs addressing here, we'll see what happens -- the holidays are bad for me. :)
Also interesting how being caged a lengthy time adds to your feminine feelings... as one who wears panties more readily, I wonder what would happen if Wife locked me for three months, LOL! :)
(she did ask if I should get a fairy-princess outfit to wear to Her company's Xmas party tonight, gulp)
Mr. SS,
Yes, a google search on choker necklaces will help explain. Something about brief asphyxiation. I believe it to be unique to female orgasm, but I may be wrong. I am not an authority on the subject.
I am glad my wife felt confident enough in her dominant role to intervene and then subsequently punish poor behavior. It is welcome control I am appreciate of. She was not always able to do so, but has clearly grown in her dominant role.
As to the feminine inklings when in prolonged chastity, your fairy-princess outfit sounds delightful. I do think it unfair that the girls get to wear all the pretty clothes. For some reason, my blog and twitter account are befriended by many overt cross dressers. One who I checked a profile for had photos of their new French maid outfit laid out on their bed. It was beautiful and my heart skipped when I saw it. My wife considers cross dressing in league with cuckolding and forbids both. I am sure no time soon she would allow me such overt expressions as to dress in pretty girl clothes. Putting away her jewelry one time I saw a delicate butterfly necklace of hers. I have to admit I tried it on and believe I looked good in it. My wife had some emotionally difficult things happen in the past which makes her frightened that I may become homosexual. She has told me it is why she forbids me from any of that kind of activity. I can totally agree I am here to do as she wants and if something frightens her, I should simply avoid as to not cause her anxiety. I do believe many submissive men find flirting with their feminine side with various forms of express to be an expression of their submissive desires for subservience, as female roles are often as such. I do not think it homosexual expressions. For me, it is a delight to consider cross dressing situations as it makes my submissive side vibrant and enjoyable for some reason. So too cuckolding situations, and many others. I have so many of which to enjoy, the absence of the others are easy to accept. After all, one must learn to be content with what is given and not become a pouty little girl.
;-}
Sincerely,
-SH
Something brief about asphyxation:
On June 4, 2009, David Carradine was found dead in his room at the Swissôtel Nai Lert Park Hotel on Wireless Road, near Sukhumvit Road, in central Bangkok, Thailand. [...] A police official said Carradine was found hanging by a rope naked in the room's closet, causing immediate speculation that his death was suicide. However, reported evidence suggested that his death was the result of autoerotic asphyxiation. [Source: Wikipedia]
SH,
Would love to see a pic of that necklace :) Just curious
Mr. SH- Thanks for your reply. And Tamara, yes, I'd heard it applies to men, as well....
SH, if your Wife doesn't like the dressing (and I'm sorry to hear about the issue that bothers Her from before), then it will be as She wants. But you're right, there's something about your blog that is appealing to us crossdressers....I love your submissiveness. And yes, can picture you trying on that necklace... very much. :)
Mr. IH, the butterfly one or the one I currently wear?
Mr. SJ,
of course it hurts. It is called emotional masochisim. Not everyone's cup of tea though. I find it of delight, in a twisted way.
take care.
-SH
The one your wife just gave you to wear recently
Mr. IH.
yes sir. attached to the bottom of this post. That is an easy one.
enjoy.
-SH
I don't understand your "punishment" at all. You were in such little physical distress that you could watch a movie. You didn't need to contemplate your errors becaused you were being entertained.
Kathy would have you keeping a coin stuck to the wall with your nose. That's punishment.
Thanks!
Anon,
Yes, I agree it was a bit of a vanilla punishment. Your gripe is with my wife’s comfort with inflicting discomfort on me. Currently, that is where she is comfortable.
Mr. IH,
NP.
-SH
jundectiYou seem to have a nice relationship with Kathy. Perhaps your wife could report misbehavour to her for sentencing. Your wife would not have to feel guilty about the punishment imposed.
Anon,
My wife has developed a distaste for being told what to do. I have a fantasy of her and her boyfriend hitting it off and she looking to him for guidance on how to punish me so her feelings of guilt are put on him by proxy, as you suggest. I do know it is just a fantasy though. IRL, my wife enjoys her independence.
Thank you for the suggestion and thoughtful comment.
Sincerely,
-SH
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