Sunday, October 9, 2011

D/s Update:


Several months ago, my wife put the brakes on the number of my blog posts. I am now limited to one per week. I found my posts moved away from personal accounts as might be found in a diary. Instead, since I had a week to think about each post I tended to author philosophical subjects with little to no account of my daily routine. Although I do enjoy vetting topics in that manner, I found I sort of missed the daily accounts too.

My last post was taken by a few commenters as an account of my current status-quo. Instead it was again a philosophical vetting of my views surrounding submissive neglect. In retrospect, I could see how that slant could be taken, but regardless I was going to devote this post to recapping my submissive role from a completely non-philosophical view.

My wife has successfully transitioned from unemployment into the position of High School teacher. For me the change has the practical effect of moving my wake up time to 4:40am. This gives me enough time to shower, and prepare my wife’s breakfast and lunch for the day. She comes downstairs at 5:40am and leaves at 6:00am. Also, when she comes home, she is very busy with grading, planning, and other school work. She works a lot of hours in stark contrast to her stint on unemployment. It lead to a period of submissive neglect feelings about a month ago, but my wife and I had a discussion and since then she and I have been working on finding new ways to incorporate D/s into our busy lives. Some my wife has been working on herself is to liberally express when she is angry with me, and even did so one time with a follow-up punishment. I had to write 150 lines of “I will do what my wife says”.

For my part, I have been staving off submissive neglect many ways. The one that seems most prominent recently is the effect from my home made PoI. I can’t wait for the manufactured ones to become available, but until then these work pretty good. I feel a countering pain during erections. My wife sometimes enjoys exciting me to cause the effect she knows I feel in it. I have to admit, the pain is a welcome addition to the bondage effect the chastity device provides. This is something I think only a submissive could understand. Perhaps there are some out there who could relate.

Another one I use on occasion is my submissive ritual. When I do it, it is at night and I kneel on hard tile while I hand write my rules by candle light. I wear binder clips as nipple clamps while I do. That adds quite a bit of pain on top of the hard floor tiles, but anyone who knows the effect of nipple clamps knows the pain can be endured until they are removed. Taking nipple clamps off is an amazing experience. As the blood moves back there is an incredible pain effect that is hard to describe. It is an exquisite feeling for a masochist and the good news is it never leaves any marks. Wonderful.

My wife tells me I should expect to remain chaste for six months. She finds if she keeps me chaste too long, I become a fairy. She has decided to enjoy me in pretty much permanent chastity with maintenance releases twice per year to stave off the inner sissy from taking over. I actually have no way of knowing if she ever chooses to forgo one of the semi-annual releases to let me suffer a bit or not. I suspect she may for fun once or twice. Time will tell.

Our youngest son is turning six this week. Our eldest turned eleven last month. My wife orchestrated parties for both, using me to do the work. She did bake the cake, but otherwise enjoyed using my serviced to order things according to her directions. It has been a fun few months under my wife’s authority.

18 comments:

SometimesSpanked said...

Congrats on your Wife for her new job and helping all the kids. And for keeping you in line! :)
It's great you get up earlier to make sure everything is ready for her.
Yes, I know the feel of those binder clips! You are a strong man! :)
Also, congrats on the birthdays of your kids. Nice that She is enabling you to make sure they are raised correctly, with Her guidance.
You're doing great!

At all Times said...

Glad to hear that you are both just getting on with life and incorporating D/s when appropriate.

I to have a morning schedule that involves me getting up early to make and serve Jane her breakfast in bed, and them make sure that everything is cleaned and tidy by the time I see her off to work.

subservient-husband said...

Mr. SS

Thanks. She is really excited about it too. As for the binder clips, I have to take a moment when they are first put on to adjust to the pain. Then the pain is a constant reminder while I hand write the rules. Taking them off is another thing all together. A real rush. Ouch!

Kids are well. Thx for asking. I find D/s is a benefit to them since mom & dad don't fight and all their needs are tended to promptly.

Mr. @AT,

yes, life is complicated. We are two intelligent adults and can learn to adapt quickly as situations warrant. Jane is lucky to have an obedient man-slave such as yourself. Well, maybe she is just lucky to have a caring husband.

;-}

-SH

Anonymous said...

Glad to see your wife has a good job now, and you are able to transition into the changes. My wife worked years ago before we had children. We are now empty nesters.

I was laid off from my job after the start of the new year. We have, for several years had a wife led marriage, but nothing serious. While I was still working, she still did all the housework and cleaning since she was at home. When I had to start looking for a new job, I agreed to start doing some of her chores. She encouraged be to do more and more, until I wound up doing all the chores for her; I enjoyed doing the work as it kept me busy, and I started to enjoy seeing her use her freedom to get out and do other things.

I got another job and started work a month ago; I work second shift going into work at 4pm and get home at 1am. My wife admitted she enjoyed her new life not having to do any of the mundane chores around the house. She told me since I am still around the house all day till I go into work there is no reason I should not still do the chores instead of her. I admit I do enjoy seeing her going out to enjoy herself while I do her former housework.

My working late had caused another problem. When I crawl into bed after 1am, I always woke her up and she has trouble getting back to sleep. She always complained about this in the morning. I commented (not seriously) that I would sleep on the floor next to the bed if that would help her. She liked that and asked me several times if I was going to do it. A couple of weeks ago she said I should expect to be sleeping on the floor when I got home, and when I did, there was a pillow and blanket on the floor for me. It wasn't comfortable, but I sleep there now. By wife is much happier in the morning now. For me, her comfort in my not sleeping in "her" bed is more important than my discomfort of sleeping on the floor.

I cannot the change in our marriage, and in my wife in just the past month since starting back to work.

subservient-husband said...

Mr. Anon,

There are millions of single parents who work do housework. It is fine that your wife asks you to fill this role too so she can enjoy the privileges of her leadership position. I find it a way my wife demonstrates to me her expectation of my subservience to her. Because of this, I find chores sexually exciting, in a twisted sort of way.

-SH

I'm-Hers said...

SH, Enjoyed the read. I wonder if your wife's seemingly lack of attention to you as you wrote about in your last post is due to her new job. I have been thinking myself about how things have changed or me personally as Katie has been preoccupied with moving. I wonder if a new job, new surroundings, new lesson plans, grading papers, and dealing with 30 kids for 7 hours a day makes her feel like she just wants to come home and relax and not worry about dominating you as much as having you make what little time she has at home with you and her kids enjoyable and relaxing. Hope your wife allows you to visit my blog as well. I always enjoy your comments. Enjoy your week.

subservient-husband said...

Mr. IH,

Hello again. Glad to read you and Katie are doing well and also glad you enjoyed the blog post.

I believe you are implying I am being too needy and placing a burden on my wife who is over taxed with the responsibilities of her new job. If I do understand this implication of yours correctly, I feel it is based on not having a complete picture of our current situation. My wife is able to come home and not worry about cooking, cleaning, tending to children, laundry, and has me at her beckon call. To suggest I am burdening her is not accurate considering the liberties she enjoys as a result of my subservience to her. If we were in an egalitarian dynamic things would be radically different. In my own defense, I do not feel in practicality I am placing any burden on my wife. On the contrary, I am doing all in my power to make her life one of ease.

My apologies if my communication faults lead you to draw a different conclusion.

Sincerely,

-SH

Anonymous said...

SH:
Your quote "I do not feel in practicality I am placing any burden on my wife. On the contrary, I am doing all in my power to make her life one of ease." shows a problem.

I am sure your wife enjoys the fact that she doesn't have to do any of the work, but reading all of your previous posts, you always want to make sure she is aware and expects her to inspect all you do.

My husband used to have the same problem. It is called "smothering". He would always ask if I thought the house was clean enough for my standards, etc, etc. It is his job and I trust him enough to do it right.

You see her as having a hard job and as you focus on her not having to do anything at home, you make it all about you, all you do for her. A wife just likes to relax and spend time at home and with her husband (and kids) without being smothered with his concerns and needs.

On the contrary, by trying to make her life one of ease, you ARE placing a burden on your wife. Just do your jobs when she is busy with something or not around, She actually feels guilty when she sees you doing work she used to do (trust me on this.

subservient-husband said...

Ms. Anon,

Hello. Thank you for taking the time to post a comment. I use to agree out of hand with female commenters, but my wife has directed me to express my thoughts freely. I hope you understand.

I do readily admit I am not perfect. "Smothering" is not something I can honestly say I feel I am guilty of. I do know it to be a common falt in men who are new to the 24/7 submissive lifestyle. I am sure I was too way back when.

Now, I do not ask for validation of submissive service. A simple bitch slapping (proverbial or actual) every so often as an expression of her dominance and to put me in my subservient place I do not feel is too much to ask.

Do you disagree?

I do agree with you that my wife has the right to enjoy coming home to a home in order to her expectations with no demands at all placed on her. It is something I strive for on a daily basis.

-SH

Kathy said...

What I beleive is that an effective
policy of 'Male Managment' is an important tool for any mistress wife.

Male management includes knowing when to reward, when to pusish, and when to pull the leash tight.
It also includes inspecting a man's work, approving of it or disapproving of it.

For young women it may also include knowing when to allow releases.

The truth is that most submissive men are needy to a degree. They need to know that mistress is watching them. They need to know that mistress appoves of them.
In the male's mind approving of his work is the same as approving of him.

In a sense inspecitng John's house work on Saturday afternoon is catering to his need for female approval. Yes, John is needy in this regard. Yet, how long does it take to inspect bathrooms to insure they have been properly cleaned.

A mistress wife can relax, enjoy her man, her clean house, etc.; but she always needs to remember that she is the mistress.

This will be a topic on my blog in the next few weeks.

Love, Kathy

subservient-husband said...

Mistress Kathy,

I do agree. The amount of time it takes to make a submissive man feel contented is negligible, but is necessary. I appreciate your comment.

-SH

P.S. on a side note. My wife has permitted me to follow two blogs. I have changed which I follow to include yours. Thank you and I look forward to your future posts.

Kathy said...

To S-H,

You are a sweet baby. Besure to thank your wife for allowing you the computer time. Women like to know that guys apprecaite the gifts they give them.

Mistrss

SometimesSpanked said...

Mr. SH- I find exactly the same with the clips... at the beginning...and OUCH, at the end, OMG!
Great you keep Her relaxed by feeding her in bed, and having everything clean and ready to go.
You're right, of course, it's good for the kids to not have any fights between us and our wives.
As Ms. Kathy said, yes, please thank your Wife for allow the computer time!

I'm-Hers said...

SH, No that is not what I was trying to say. Rather I was saying that because your wife is so busy with work related responsibilities I was wondering if the D/s aspect of your life was being put on a back burner in her mind as you wrote about in an earlier post. I too am experiencing this same dynamic as I wrote in my most recent post.
I am theorizing that your wife is just focusing on what is most pressing and that pressing responsibility (teaching) is taking the majority of her time and energy. Sorry for not being more clear.

subservient-husband said...

Big time ouch. Blurs the vision for a moment.

;-}

Mr. IH,

Oh, I see. No, she is creative and smart. I find if someone puts D/s on the back burner when they get busy, it is a sign that they need to put effort into it. Many who are D/s that are ‘scene’ based relationships (i.e. where they just do play time D/s things) let it lapse when they are busy. Those who are 24/7 service submissives such as myself, actually get used more when life becomes busy. The children’s two birthday parties are an example. I was used as my wife’s subservient more heavily. What does change is the amount of time she has to express her dominance to me. As Ms. Kathy alluded to, this is really a very small amount of time and effort though.

Hope this answers your question.

Sincerely,

-SH

SometimesSpanked said...

Obviously wise of your Wife to use your submissiveness more when she's busy, like the two parties... :)

subservient-husband said...

Yup. Smart women.

2-nite is a sleep over. I am cooking pizza...

Anonymous said...

I must say I am amazed that your wive's new decision to limit you to only one orgasm every 6 months was mentioned with such casualness. For the rest of us, the act of enduring and achieving such an extreme degree of chastity would merit a blog all of its own. However for you it seems like no big deal.

I just discovered the blog, maybe I need to go back and figure out what sort of allowance schedule you've been working up to - maybe 6 months of chastity is close to the norm? Does she milk you at all?